Motivation in all it’s forms…
Alright, so right now I’m having odd motivations.
This morning, I was very motivated to sleep in. – I did not follow this motivation though.
Instead at 4:30am when my first (yes, first out of 4) alarm went off. I realized that the cat box very much needs to be done, and if I risked not doing it till I got home from work today, I quite possibly would want to strangle my cat for his.. ahem, misadventures and outright snippish attitude (meaning, I’d once again be cleaning up someplace other than his litter box.) So I hauled my ass out of bed, cleaned his cat box, and then promptly went back to bed. Odd motivation, non?
For the next 15-20 minutes, I was in a quasi state of sleep/awake. I thought about my writing and the motivations of it.
A Hard Day’s Bite has been officially put down for now. As I’ve quietly spoken about in recent posts, it needed to be changed. It just wasn’t gelling.
I no longer had motivation to write a story set in Denver.
I have motivation to write about a story set in London. But due to the setting change, a lot of the little things will have to change. This is not a bad thing, but it just means I have to think about things in a different way. I also need to do more research. I am okay with this. Mother of Mine was very supportive of the idea when I was pitching it to her with all my “hows and whys”.
When I move, pretty much I’ll be stuck with not much to do for the first 6 months. Yes, I have things that I can keep myself busy with. (I write this as if I won’t be going to school, because honestly… who knows if we’ll be able to afford me to not be working, and also be enrolled in school.)
I will possibly be trying to launch an Indy Dyeing business.
So, I am quite sure that I can and will always be able to find something to keep me occupied.
But, not working for 6 months, will also mean that I can:
1)Wander around London for hours upon hours “discovering / researching”
2)Spend a day with the police force learning their procedures.
This, excites me. This makes me look forward to writing again.
I was not able to really do either of those 2 things right now while living in CO, because it would generally require me to take off of work, which I just can’t afford right now.
As I am going to keep the main character (Alex for those who know her), American, it means I can still incorporate Colorado. And I can still have some bit of storyline set in Colorado. I am okay with this compromise. (By the by… she’s gonna be from Boulder, cause that just fits her.)
Another thing in my favor right now of switching the city, is that to my direct knowledge… I cannot recall any major Urban Paranormal Fantasy novels currently set in London.
Truth is, it’s all set in cities around America, and well… America is gettin’ rather full of the Vamps and wolfies. It seems like every city, weither it is a small town, or as large as gotham… they’ve all got the ones who go nibbly in the night.
So yes, I have currently put AHDB down for right now. I will not drop it entirely because I really feel good about this novel. But, I just am not at a point where I can do it justice. If you know me, I’m not one to really do things half assed. Wait.. let me clairify before Mother of Mine decides to chime in… If I care about something, I don’t do it half assed.
But, putting AHDB down, has allowed me to pick up my other novel. The one I refused to start writing on until I had finished AHDB. This one, does not require the same amount of research as it is not set in the modern world, nor is it set in a time period that I have to adhear to specific rules on. This one, allows me to play. Woohoo!
I’m not far into it, only about a paragraph or so. It’s a prologue really, and I’m quite happy with it.
Guy has read it, and promptly stated he wanted to read more. Which gives me confidence as always.
So this morning as I was half awake, and half asleep I was thinking on my new little novel. The main character is still nameless as of yet, but that will change. It’s just a matter of finding his right name.
Right now I am sitting at work, and I am quite unmotivated to be here.
Yesterday was not a fun day, because certain people have decided to not show respect.
I will not give a person respect if they do not give me respect.
Though, I will for now, keep my mouth shut and simply not speak to them unless absolutely necessary. I need this job for 14 months, and after that, well it will be a moot point. So, I’m determined to just smile on the outside and inwardly squish their heads every time I see them.
I am sleepy. I want to go home. I want to write, I want to knit.
Update on Mother of Mine:
We have determined that her fevers over the weekend were related to a tooth issue. (Well, we are hoping- because it’s not like she needs to be sick on top of the tooth issue)
Lets just say there was lots of pain, and just not being happy.
Yesterday we took her to the Er dentist, and shockingly it was not as painful on the wallet as we had been expecting.
For the most part, we figured we would need to just have the tooth pulled.
I’ve been down this road. The dentist will always try to sell you a root canal first.
But, that is at least 2300$ before even getting the crown put on.
The reason mom was in this much pain, was the crown she had broke off to begin with.
The tooth also we discovered had a big old crack in it. Hence all the pain.
My personal vote is and pretty much always will be right now (until I have money to get my teeth fixed) is to just pull it. You can always save to get an implant later. (or other dental item)
So, Mother of Mine got the tooth pulled.
She is also in the process of trying to get a Case by Case grant for dental work. And the dentist we went to is going to give a comprehensive list of everything she needs to get done (including the cost of getting a denture made.) so hopefully mom will get awarded the grant, and will be able to get her teeth fixed. The grant only goes to people in need, and my mom more than qualifies.
Knitting: I don’t have anything on the needles right now. Mayhaps I’ll actually finish my Wicked Verdigris… it’s just a few sewing stitches, I don’t know why I haven’t done it yet other than lack of motivation.
Oooh oooh Oooh!
My first batch of Lucien arrived. Woohoo! He is absolutely gorgeous. I cannot wait to start playing with him.
This very much means, that I will need to buy the pattern I plan on using, and then finding out the appropriate guage. I know I wasn’t planning on actually knitting up the waistcoat until I moved.. but he’s just sooo gorgeous. And the name of the project, has now changed from “Steamy Alexandra” to “Clockwork Lucien”
I have lots of photos that I need to take, and if I don’t loose the light today, then I will do that.
Must take photos of the Seaweed Shrug
Must take photos of Lucien
and I think there is something else I need to take a photo of.
I got another person for my Pay It Forward project, which makes me happy. As really I had been bummed that though I got people who thought it was neat, none of them actually paid it forward. And in the rules I said “maybe I’ll send you something even if you just comment” but really.. I want people to pay it forward if I’m actually going to make you something.
I guess I am done rambling for now.
Gotta get back to work (gee it only took me an hour on and off typing this while getting work done)